Flying 8,108* miles home

December 26, 2009

in through the looking glass

I bet’ya that I was given the best Christmas present this year. Hands down.

I will be flying home. Today. By myself.

A while ago I wrote about how I wish I could go home and see my parents. Many of you commented that I should just take the trip… Before it’s too late. I want to thank you all for bringing me to my senses. Really. I asked myself: What’s stopping me? All the “I can’ts” are just excuses. Excuses. Excuses.

After the plane rides and time spent waiting at the airports, I will only have two full days over there. But I am content. Because I will be home. BY MYSELF. I don’t have to translate for anybody and feel being pulled on by both sides. Feeling guilty towards all involved. Feeling schizophrenic.

My mother, who is almost 80 and still behaves like a school girl sometimes (Seriously. At one point, one should just admit to the fact that anti-aging cosmetic creams are just not going to do anything for you any more, no matter how expensive… But, yes,  of course I have 3 jars in my luggage that I am bringing home for my mother) told me over the phone,

“Just don’t sleep when you are here. Sleep on the plane!”

I wish she could speak English because I wanted her to say, “Sleep is overrated anyway.”

“I will not even bother with my jet lag. We will hit the night market as soon as I land. And I can sleep during the day.” I replied.

She fully approved of my plan.

The trouble is: I haven’t even left yet and I am already dreading saying goodbye to my folks. I know already that on the day when I come back, I will be a crying mess, because my dad will cry for sure, he’s such a softie, and when he cries, I cry too. Once we get it going, there is no stopping us. Very annoying… On account of that, I am having an early start on my own already…

Seriously. Me. WTF.

* Miles calculated according to United Airline’s mileage display. 14 hours + 4 hours.

{ 7 comments }

Andrea December 26, 2009 at 1:01 pm

Oh wow!! I am so in awe that you are going! Hugs to you. Soak up that love while you can!

Wishing you the best,
Andrea
.-= Andrea´s last blog…"The Little Drummer Boy" =-.

Absence Alternatives December 27, 2009 at 12:34 pm

Thank you. I will be soaking up all the fat and food first… Seriously. I forgot what a giant I am here. And I am “only” 5’7″…

magda December 26, 2009 at 3:11 pm

as a full blown cry baby who is emotionally boundariless, i am choking back tears and the lump in my throat. how sweet, that your mom wants to envelope you and get every minute in…and that you want it too and that your dad is a giant softie for you and you for him. glad you get to see your folks. i cannot for a minute imagine having parents i feel connected to or worry about or miss. that sounds impossibly difficult, the tiny visit and the giant goodbyes. enjoy your time there.

ok, now i want to be you. i am beginning to see a very unhealthy pattern of mine.
.-= magda´s last blog…Wordless Wednesday =-.

Absence Alternatives December 27, 2009 at 12:36 pm

Actually, if you are more petite (and I remember you are in the pictures with you in them) I should totally swap with you. I am standing out like a sore thumb here… I forgot.

Elly Lou December 26, 2009 at 3:59 pm

Beautimous! You will be so glad you did this. I can’t think of a niftier way to celebrate the holiday and life in general. Hugs and safe everything!
.-= Elly Lou´s last blog…Career Possibilities =-.

Absence Alternatives December 27, 2009 at 12:37 pm

Thanks! You guys “made” me do it. LOL.

Jen @ NathanRising December 30, 2009 at 10:28 pm

I am so glad you are getting to see your parents!!! Best wishes to you and I’m sure you will have a wonderful time!! I hope you enjoy(ed) your Alone Time. I loooooove Alone Time. Don’t get me wrong, I love my son more than life itself, but sometimes it’s nice to have Me time, even if I can only get it when driving in the car or whatnot.
-Jen
.-= Jen @ NathanRising´s last blog…Time Keeps on Slipping =-.

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